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How Are You....Really?

People keep asking me how I am.I don't know how to answer them anymore.If I answer with okay, I get a sympathetic moan or grunt in affirmation, a head tilt, then a clearly and slowly enunicated, "No REALLY, how are YOU?"If I say I am good, even if that is what I am truly feeling in that moment, I get incredulous stares and a shake of the head and am told, "Don't be so tough, you can share your real feelings with me".If I say I am surviving, going along with the emotions to get through my day and that is simply okay til I find my footing again, I get a smile in return and a quick blurb about how "time will heal" and then the subject is changed.Seemingly, the best response is the last one, even though I don't feel that all the time. Actually, to be quite honest, I am not feeling much. Because, my brain is still in shock. I have cried a little. I have hiked until my body cried and screamed at me. I called to get all her medical equipment picked u…